Monday, April 20, 2015

National Infertility Awareness Week

This week is National Infertility Awareness Week. To be honest, I didn't even know this existed, but am so happy that it does. I hope that it creates awareness about infertility and brings hope to those who are going through it. 

The NIAW 2015 theme is "You are not alone". What a great theme! I know I have definitely felt alone going through this process, but have found hope and support in reading others' blogs. I am a pretty private person and really didn't even start talking to my closest friends about our infertility journey until recently. A couple of them knew we were TTC and from time to time I heard the dreaded, "oh, just stop trying and it will happen" or "get drunk or plan a vacation and you'll get pregnant, that's what happened to my sister". Ugh. Those phrases are enough to drive you crazy! I think once we started moving in to IVF our closest friends realized it was a more serious matter and have now backed off of saying things like this. I know they still do not fully understand what my husband and I are going through, but I do appreciate their support. 

I have also noticed that the more I open up about infertility, the more I meet people who have or are experiencing their own journey. I learned that a girl I speak with on a regular basis is actually a patient at the same fertility clinic as me. We compare stories and share frustrations with each other. Trust me, I do not wish infertility upon anyone and hate that others have to experience it, but learning about others' journeys helps me realize I am not alone. Infertility can be really isolating, but I have found it really does help to open up about it. I'm not the best writer in the world, and even if no one else is reading this, writing this blog helps me through this crazy journey too. 

One of my favorite bible verses is Phillippians 4:6--Don't worry about anything, instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. 
This verse helps me to remember that I can't be consumed with focusing on what I do not have yet. Instead, I will remember to be grateful for all of the blessings that I do have. 

Wednesday, April 15, 2015

Crossing My Fingers

Yes! I started my period last week and got to start on birth control...finally! Today I went in for my saline sonogram and my RE also wanted to do an endometrial biopsy. Ouch! It was not comfortable at all. But luckily it was over fairly quick and it will all be worth it in the end. She told us it will take about 2-3 weeks for the results to come back. If all goes well we can do a FET in about a month.

From the way our doc explained it, a FET sounds a little easier. We haven't got our medication protocol yet though, so I guess we will see. Six embryos are frozen but I know some may not make it through the thawing process so I'm a little worried about that. I'm going to try my hardest not to stress out about this next cycle.  I think I need to get back to yoga and hopefully destress a little bit.

Monday, April 6, 2015

Quick Update

Well, I am still waiting on my period to come. Unfortunately I feel stuck and cannot move forward until I start my period, have a saline sono, and then start a round of birth control again. I am now 2 weeks late and yes, of course I have taken pregnancy tests which have been negative. I don't think I've ever wanted a period to come as much as I do now!
I did talk to my doctor's office and all of my blood work, including our chromosome testing was negative. So, we are kind of back at square one and do not have a problem or a solution.
Needless to say I'm feeling very frustrated and getting impatient.